I am sexy

I now go to the gym 3-4 times a week.  You can say its part of my inner transformation.  Started last year when a friend of mine said, 'You look all right, you just need to tone up a bit and go work out'. I was shocked at his honestly...but really I was tired of covering up all the time.

And I said to myself.....enough is enough......  I want to look hot and sexy!  I dared to say that.

My entire life I've been resisting being pretty or being judged for my looks and I always over compensated and went out of my way to prove to people I had brains.  And I constantly judged and hated the pretty girls.    So last year, 2012 August.  I started to work out and eat healthy.  But i don't think it was the working out or the change of eating habits that created a transformation.  (Mind you for 3 months i stopped and I didn't feel sexy, but I got back on track in Feb 2013)

Transformation began when I started to believe I was sexy and hot - things started to change.

During one of my contemplative moments, I realized it wasn't the gym that created the transformation.  It was my belief that 'I am sexy'.  I thought it, believed it, breathed it and in turn exuded it.  And it was around that time i noticed the attention I was getting was no longer, about me being cute or nice, I was treated as sexy.

Now this might sound like a self indulgent entry.  But i wanted to share that because I believed it and the Universe heard me, and people started to take notice.  I realized how powerful just a thought can be.  I had not lost weight or toned as much, but the attitude changed how I looked.

The power of thought.

I viewed myself differently...that also meant that I wouldn't talk bad about myself or my body.

I make a conscious effort to love my body and to not call myself fat, or anything negative.  I had to eliminate that.  I realized the trend.  When I believed that my body wasn't good enough and i expressed it....i looked different, heavier and duller in my appearance.  So no more put downs for me.

So my whole transformation started not with going to the gym, it started with my thoughts and beliefs.  And everything else that followed was easy.  Going to the gym is not a chore and neither is clean eating.  In fact I enjoy it so much that its a part of my daily life.

Physically I am working hard to achieve my ideal BMI and focusing on strength training and muay thai.  But i think the hardest part was just believing.

P.S.  When im on the treadmill and while working out, a trick i use is to repeat my mantra over and over and its totally motivates me to push myself and move forward even more when i think i can't go on anymore.  My mantra is:

'I am a sexy, confident, passionate & loving woman.  I am a panther.'