I've been avoiding to write again.
Was telling my friend, that I liked doing things alone. Like eating alone, shopping alone, errands alone. Sometimes when I'm feeling blue I'll head on over to my favorite chicken rice shop and eat.....alone....or go to a mall alone to shop. He encourage me to write about it.
I need my time alone. It doesn't scare me. In fact I love it cause it is when I am alone when my internal voices are loud! It gives me time to think of the things that are bugging me, the things that I am avoiding I face it during this alone time.
A scary thought. I do know quite a number of people that hate being alone...cause they don't want to answer those questions or thoughts at the back of their mind. And if they are alone they fear to face what they have been avoiding. Hence the reason why they always have to be around people or be doing something with someone......sorta like a headless chicken running around with the illusion 'i got my shit together'.
My alone time is my mental time to get my shit in order.
Alone time can be liberating. A few years back, I went to the Kanye West concert alone. Crazy stupid pathetic......whatever say I. I went and actually found it liberating cause when i wanted to scream like a maniac I did, when i wanted to dance I did...yeah i saw friends there and chatted for a while....but i liked that i went alone. It was fun....and i wanted to push myself - testing myself if i can let go of that sense of security to go with someone so i wouldn't look stupid.
My next alone adventure......traveling alone on a vacation. To a beach....that will truly be intense, fun and alot of 'internal talking' with a dash of picture taking. My way of meditation and time to think, reflect and be free spirited.
Do you like being alone?
What are your 'alone time' activities.....
3 comments:
I adore my "me" time. Movies alone. Dinner alone. It feels weird sometimes, because I'm used to talking to someone, but yes, going to some bar, sitting by the bar and enjoying my drinks alone is somewhat quite nice. I don't even read, I rather just watch people.
Maybe I should do that. Tonight.
This page really hit me. A voice in my heart is telling me to do something to fix myself, but I can't figure out how... you just pointed it out loud and clear, amazingly n thanks.
Time to take this 'adventure' to face the reality.
fioncats
Damn right, I agree with you, so you are definitely NOT alone there! I am a "loner" too! Well not really a loner, I do enjoy the company of friends A LOT! But usually my weekends are sacred. Like like keeping my weekends--well, Sundays at least to myself, to reflect on things and all :)
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