sometimes the flood gates open and tears just flow

When was the last time I cried?

A few weeks ago when things were just overwhelming.  

Call me neurotic, but sometimes i get in a bind, flustered and frustrated I need to go to a corner and cry it all out.

I've been labeled the cry baby.  It doesn't take me much to get me to cry.  Be it a song, an-in-your-face-statement to my face or even someone's story of struggle & hardships.  So, is me being emotional cry baby a bad thing?

Its one thing to cry for attention in front of others its another thing to just release let go and realize there are tears streaming down your face.  

There are many triggers from my water works and many reasons why i cry.  

**Story**

After dedicating myself as a freelance facilitator and working my way up in a year & a half to a trainer in training.  I was at the back of the training room, having a bit of 'down time'.  My coach said to me this would be the last training for all of us.  Contract ended and that the company i freelanced for will no longer be doing these training's. 

I sat at the back of the room staring into space, letting it all sink in.  

'You mean after this we all won't be working together anymore in this type of setting?'

'No, we won't be replied my training coach.'

Reality sunk in and I cried.

I cried because I was freaking happy that I accomplished a huge goal in a year and a half.  

I cried because I was sad that we wouldn't have the intimate, fun, loving working environment ever again.

I cried because many long lasting friendships were created through the training.

I cried because 'my purpose', (in the form of work) will end.  

I cried because I worked damn hard, minimal sleep, crappy food, great team, great coaches, great training participants and great experiences shared with great friends was all ending. 

It was a painful cry.  Which lasted for a week.  

Sometimes a good cry is good.  To just let it all out.  Cause keeping it in is just too much of an effort for me.  Let the flood gates open for a while...if it means me feeling better the next morning.  After all, the sun has to come out after the rain.